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2007-05-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

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salamander singh, my squeaky chair is gone

2007-05-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

amen ;D

so sick and tired

2007-04-29T23:31:00.000+08:00

i seriously need/want/ought to be immersed in an environment that is more mature, capable, and MORE DISCIPLINED than what i am in now.

tmr is the start of the 2nd week or work. im getting used to the hours already. i hope the divine one would accept my labour proposal and make my life easier.

i went back to ubi house just now to help remove some of the curtains... the whole place has been knocked apart; rubble everywhere.

cant wait for june. where everything should be complete.

what used to be my kitchen and storeroom

shit

first day

2007-04-23T15:49:00.000+08:00

if anyone has watched "the office US" before, my office is almost there.

its 9 hours a day every weekday at "Resonance PR and learningbrain Int'l".

not quite the kind where everybody slacks around, but comparably small enough.

we do have "lunch at your own time" time and "no worries, grab a short break as you would like". HA.

so basically is finishing up the brain game i did last semester and working on my photoshop skills.

i so hope that by the end of may i could poke my nose into the other half of the company and know more about doing PR stuff.

with all the extra time i have now, i might even redevelop my own hobby website( long lost in cyber-singa-spyedon-space)

at least i do have some not so bad looking office babes here =D, and of cos, my own desk.

mrs bossles does make some good kaya. and everybody has been kind, first lunch FREE already.

strange wonders we cannot comprehend

2007-04-22T01:59:00.000+08:00

i guess staying in another part of our teeny island cannot really compare to staying in another country. maybe like 1/100 fraction of similarity.

anyway... things are beginning to look up. the Lee brothers gerald and gabriel have been really nice people.

im glad to feel lesser and lesser like a castaway.

the big problem still remains la.. its realy unaccesible here. bus-wise.

today i spent the entire night with the choir people. man, we had a pure 100% rock solid belgian chocolate cake. no nuts, not even a hint of cake flour. its like gagging on a fondue fountain.

i guess these are the perks of mixing with a more fortunate, successful and mature crowd.

recently i have began to take a step back and realise how much of an idiot i can be like when im having fun. i seriously should act my age i guess...

i have a personal reflection and resolution which i really hope to stick by,

I serve God, who is almighty and perfect. I pray to be put into a place where i can serve together with peers that are capable of lifting each other to new grounds.

a busy end april ;}

strangeness in the night

2007-04-14T11:37:00.000+08:00

my current slum of of an apartment in simei.

no air con ~_~

some of the most basic needs i need to fulfil to at least feel at home.

on the brighter side, theres eastpoint.s.c and an mrt 5 mins away.

it used to be a really dull shopping center but last night when i passed by it was crawling with people!

alright, back to more moving now..

Attack of the boxes

2007-04-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

O_O. this shall be my "BEFORE" post.

happy easter

2007-04-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

courtesy of jon heng =D

Easter has been great, full of new experiences.

i have learnt a great deal, though its been really tiring.

if u have not given till it hurts, it is not enough.

why is everything falling apart

2007-04-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

this time there is no safety net.

and evil strikes us so strategically.

i need to see silver lining by sunday.

confirmed, must move everything out by next sunday.
renovation will commence the day after.

so tempted to touch u

2007-04-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

i am so bushed. tired, i mean.

i keep telling myself i can do more...

would you rather i lie, or pretend?

its holy week. and tmr, im taking a break and have more family time.

i guess packing up and leaving ubi for 13 weeks is really a reality.

1 week to moving out day-

Everybody's leaving... the losers are left behind, or wait... maybe its because they give in too much to doing the right thing.

8april will be fun with each person signing up, i get more excited.

remind myself 17 april will tell me if im cut out for the industry or not.

i need to be on time, its the only way to catch your wave.

dont let my looks fool you.

maybe we'll meet when im 70 and your 67.

300 blast

2007-03-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

i went out with veracia today. and the show 300 was actually good.

its about the spartans and how they value honor and valor ,bravery and war. the starting is abit sick la, some scenes abit gory.

In fact, whole show is gory la. and i think MDA gave a wrong rating. with all the nudity and sex, bundled with the battle violence. should be at least R21. then again. nvm, since ive watched it alr.

No spoilers here.

Anyway tmr starting classes at this new music school. http://www.themusiclab.com.sg/

and then SIP starts in 3 weeks. i am so not in the mood to get back to work.

to all OLPS, there is a Easter Party on the 8th of April, Renew, Restore, Refresh. All are encouraged to attend.

Ticket Selling will be held during this 2 weekends. =D

st james

2007-03-13T03:35:00.000+08:00

first time at st james! and i didnt even have to come out 1 cent.

talk about clubbing a waste of money.

toured the lobby area, then powerhouse. even manged to let the bouncer let me into movida, the latin area for 23+'s.

real crazy. plus free flow. happy happy night lah.

i saw ZERO local candy. but superb non locals.

i think this place pwns mos or zouk. the only pity is that most of the entertaining jobs are lost to either foreigners or the METAL. walang la, this is dissapointing.

talk about losing my club virginity. im such a loser. NOT anymore...

thank you mr jeremy.

still ill

2007-03-11T17:58:00.000+08:00

%^$$^ intercourse hotel is the lousiest place ever.

but god is kind, we had a super cool night stayout at esplanade...

anyways, jus checked out the place i will be renting up till may, the place is BIG enough to cater for my drums, but other then that, its horrid.

1 pathetic heater only in the common toilet, 0 air cons, bulb-less lights, and bedroom doors which can only be unlocked from the inside.

HAHA! im gonna treat this as an experience though. not moving till end of march.
sooo... all the best to me!

homestay

2007-03-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

its the end of my 2 years at TP.
if next thursday is good news for me, that being me passing all my exams, then im safe to say its my LAST YEAR at TP!

Anyway, sorry for lack of updates, just been busy with other stuff. music is still my life, so im back on lessons again. that also means a big pain on my pocket too..

so anyways, we're gonna stay at intercon hotel this saturday, tomorrow. and i am gonna do myself a big favour and rest my body before i start with more intense training. thankfully sundays i have dragonboating, a new club iven signed up with, can visit the link here.

ive been irregular at the gym, and i think i cant grow any much bigger size already. i'll have to stick with small built muscles i guess..
hurr.

take care everyone!

shadowed

2007-01-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

merry xmas and a happy new year every-BUDDY!

havent update because ive been busy partying around and catching up on sleep.

school term begins today and i really dont feel that theres a difference since ive been working through the holidays also.

theres not much stress on my projects yet so i think this semester will be quite smooth sailing.

Recently, ive started this personal regime of mine to really control my tongue. dont want to cause more hurt on topof who ive already offended.

i pray that i get involved in less unintended gossip and for people around me to understand the reasons for this.

byebye 2006. HELOO 07!

hoo you

2006-12-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

hoo
Ho \Ho\, Hoa \Hoa\ (h[=o]), interj. [Cf. F. & G. ho.] 1. Halloo! attend! -- a call to excite attention, or to give notice of approach. ``What noise there, ho?'' --Shak. ``Ho! who's within?'' --Shak.2. [Perhaps corrupted fr. hold; but cf. F. hau stop! and E. whoa.] Stop! stand still! hold! -- a word now used by teamsters, but formerly to order the cessation of anything. [Written also whoa, and, formerly, hoo.]

The duke . . . pulled out his sword and cried ``Hoo!'' --Chaucer.An herald on a scaffold made an hoo. --Chaucer.

isnt the greatest sin GOSSIPING.

and its so hard to curb.

merry merry x'mas

2006-12-25T04:17:00.001+08:00

deck the halls with boughs of .......... love man.

christmas is in the air!

such a fulfilling xmas. went carolling to some kindergarten and also for so many sets in church.

!!! i still have my external project to complete but its been so great with all my buddies around.

the only thing i regret is not spending ANY time with the e3 guys... the time WILL come for them. heh.

uploading pictures soon..

merry merry x'mas

2006-12-25T04:17:00.000+08:00

2006-12-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

i need someone to point me in the right direction bcos right now i feel that my emotions are playing tricks on me.

my meli

2006-12-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

i long for the time,
where your god inspired talents,
sprout like a germinating seed.
where inner beauty overflows and
blinds me to see the perfect child.

in gods light it reflects upon the gifts.
u are understanding when i least expect it,
though rare the ocassion but
meaningful and well appreciated when u do.

actually, i smell the wind coming from the direction:

PUBLIC RELATIONS

I REALLY LIKE THIS PICTURE? MAKES ME FEEL DAMN TALL.

god will be glorified tonight. because i am satisfied in him.

hurr~ first session was successful in its own ways, and more talent to come.

yahoo!

oh faith oh faith sweet splendid faith.
dont ever die on me because i need to
make ready the way, make a straight path.

UPDATES

2006-12-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

UPDATES.

hello, i have been really busy with projects and minisitry stuff to do. practice and practice... okay, so this sat is finally our first session.

on the not so important side, i hope to play well and let jesus the drummer in me set the groove and let my heart beat in tune with his song.

and i wish all will be a success because the lord almighty is on our side!

okayy,,, so our beloved teresa is leaving for mission trip AGAIN, we went to have our byebye dinner!

only this time, JULY is >18 and LEGAL!
so off we go to ink pub in swisshotel and had the silliest time ever!
i wont see myself getting dragged up on stage and shaking my cannotbeseen ass any other day.

HAHA!
okay, projects are due and this thur has been the greatest time of relax ever.
a stay over with meli and friends and then our JULY getaway.

its time to start work again... =(

will be praying for a SUCCESS post about the 2nd of dec, first session HOOO!

so here is a pic of how i look when i am sleep deprived, or not.

back from saturday shakethoselegs

2006-11-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

the covenant:movie rates 6/10.

excellent plot, my favourite kind! finally a movie that explores the witch' era.

actually, i would love to see the ipswitch cast as 5 sexy ladies rather than 4 dashing guys and 1 not so dashing RAT.

ya, and so the story went on great, average effects and a VERY VERY BAD ending. tsk.. as though the director himself was cursed and died halfway while filming the show. so bloody abrupt!

it is so obvious to me that the effects and ending lacked IMAGINATION and PROFESSIONALISM!

i take back from the show:
what is power if one has no imagination?
with that i mean imagination to use power
wanna kill people also cannot think of a more interesting way, shoot balls of water at each other =.='

much less talk about helping people.

so yes, in REAL life. we've got no power...
lets be happy with just imagination.
so daydream more and let your imagination grow.

i hope parents stop killing thier child's dreams and imagination by defiling young minds with "CANNOT" ,"ONE WAY TO DO THIS" .. saying stuff like that.

oh well. i conclude by adding SUNTEC CITY to my list of
- NOT TAKING CAB FROM HERE AFTER 11.30PM

feeling in-describe-able

2006-11-03T00:54:00.000+08:00

the worthy follower

clinging to the railing of sin,
i still kept u in my mind.
always knew my heart was meant to beat for you,
my life meant to chase after your heart.
my groove to beat after u.

i didn't move until your name deafened me.
i lept once again into your outstretched palm.

Parachute Band Concert.

i got my first concert "catch me if u can" CD!
damn blessed sialll, the singer on stage kinda just dropped it into my hands.

im so h-aye-p-p-Y!

blessings from new zealand.

and thanks nats anthony for the great evening.

alrighty

2006-10-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

schools not as bad as it seeems.

this sem, im learning a whole lot of shit subjects that would be really useful in the industry.
and just as well, i wanted to learn stuff like php and xml for my own use.

on the other hand, im beginning to give up on a social life in school and am determined to slog my guts out to deperately pull my gpa score up to a level that would please the gods.

give up on my social life?
i guess its a yes, as least within the walls of my school. BECAUSE, apart from my original CG, everyone else walks around with black faces and AND give their trademakr fake smiles and greetings.

waittt...... even i myself am a pro at those fake emotions, fight poison with poison.

cheerios!

school starts tomorrow,and not a green eye in sight.

2006-10-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

and then suddenly, he took me with his big and strong hands and snapped me into 2 pieces.

its been too long since the last time i didnt get what i thought i was ready to have.
BAM!

ive been sitting my ass at home for too long this 1 1/2 months. and then tomorrow, im going back to school, the so called reality life of my 18 year old self.

is it just me thinking thats its hard to fit in with the rest of the students in school, or AM I IN THE WRONG faculty?

because i know i belong someplace better.
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i shall continue with an update tomorrow.
unless i turn into a twit within the next 24hrs.
oh lessons and lectures, COME get a piece of me!

sore loser

2006-10-10T02:22:00.000+08:00

"each wave of pain comes every half hour" "how're u feeling?"

-some dialogue from the movie world trade centre

i feel horrible.
besides the fact that i'll be meeting up with some sch mates in the coming 2 days.

like that means like that

2006-10-06T03:44:00.000+08:00

kiss me baby, fuck reality.

pardon the language.

im turning 18 Tommorow!

to do list: (in order of importance)
1. sign up for driving licence
2. learn to hold my tongue
3. appreciate what i have =D
4. plan my room's renovation

5. work hard next sem

GOD has been kind. and im learning to see him working in my life.

i am not perfect, still thinking and doing ungodly things.....

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now now, just this week i feel broke again.

new hats, pay school fees, pay transport fees,planning to spend on someonesomeone.

and then! i start to recieve my birthday ang-baos etc etc etc.... hurrr

though im not in the best of moods, and likemy friend said:

something like.. dont fall down how to show u my power.

jeremy told me that it was still ok to join them for choir practices, my god! u guys have no idea how much i would miss going for practice...

and then not too long ago earlier this week i felt like pms mood i dunno why also and then i treated everyone and everything like shit.

and then i think i am selfish, in a way like... oh man my big day is ard the corner and im so unhappy.

ohwell it seems that things are starting to turn around now... and i think the weekend will be even greater.

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dunno what im saying also lah. nows like 4am.

kk thanks for reading, this is like self dialogue.

the unthinkable thinkable

2006-09-30T02:18:00.000+08:00

worship team session

speaks,

i ask GOD for all the things in the world, so that i can enjoy life.
but GOD gave me life, to enjoy all things.

its really really true lah. this holiday, ive come to witness many marvelous things happening around me, and to me.

he takes care of all my needs. if i dont get it, then i dont need it, or just yet.

imagine-
ur walking in a store, see something u like and quietly say to yourself. "hmm i'll save up and get that one day". and he takes his heavenly pen and notes it down. and then, he sends a mail package via ANGELmail- and u recieve it!

isn't that just wonderful?

well, i feel that the time taken to get something u want is like the duration of your mail package's delivery time to u. and that while we wait to recieve that gift, we learn to treasure it, respect it, and appreciate it, ultimately putting it to good use. so when we dont get what we want, its not due for us to keep.

doesnt apply only to material things, but even emotional needs...
(yes those of you praying for that someone special, dont lose hope just yet)

so since my birthday is coming right up, i'll expect to recieve a BIG Big Blessing!
(i can tell im already halfway there)

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now everyone try hard to remember...

when was the last time u got so deeply touched and felt super super emotional, but couldnt express it.

TODAY. i felt the same like,
a 5 year old getting the toy he really wanted!

a 10 year old who met his friend in the park!

a 15 year old who scored his first straight A's at school!

a 18 year old to be who nv dreamt he'd own that kinky something he saw at a mall!

eh, now now dont get me wrong... its all action and inaction.

so they say,

while....
not true, yes?

OHWELL, its my new pillow covers from someone someone and i gotta admit, its way to cool to be true.

what i mean is, I LIKE IT. and if u dont, then i DONT LIKE YOU!

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so what exactly was i up to the whole week?

well, nothing much actually...

.maybe praying to avoid contact with mailto:burr&lizz@rd legal department.

.pestering my mum for my allowance

.enjoying life at home like a king without worries

.finally feeling relieved that imf is over and the road to suntec seems less cloudy and filled with unhappiness

.got drunk at bensons daddy's pub

.had chalet with e3 dudes

.happily ignored the result of SI's FINALS

.enjoying the last of ymm practices
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T.W.I.M.C.

i have since decided to leave my music ministry in olps and serve fulltime in genesis.

the only thing i regret is playing for mass. something i so dearly love and want to continue doing someday.

i ask for your prayers in helping me find the right direction and make the right choices.

alrighty! im done...

thanks for reading, whoever.

hmm...

tmr night im running after a bus at 11.45pm

2006-09-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

not gonna sit here or run,
i'll find a way this time.

Lift me on your wings, carry me,
i long to near, the warmth of your embrace.

hold me now, before i fade away.
always true, i know i'll come back to you.

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i dunno how i churned those words out, but yeah i wanna write my own song one day.

Recently i realised...

1.Its a pain to travel to suntec even though weekly when the roads are closed thanks to IMF.

2.Its not easy to say goodbye to something/someone u love/like, even if its only temporary.

3.That before i buy something really expensive, i should give myself a 1month buffer at least to see if i still really want it after that.

4.Its possible to live a day without internet, i pay more attention to my other distractions =D

5.That to allow your smelly friend on your bed without frowning is easier than letting them think ur a clean freak.

6.Fat people are cute. Stupid people are Godless people.

7.If u know how to handle stress, everyday is a holiday.

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Recenty, i went into a bookstore and i saw something.

do u know? the metal? u know the guitar? the metal music?

theres no relation, BUT i have to stick these on my blog.

Ordinary Metal Cased Book

SOooo NOT TRUE.

WE HAVE BEEN INVADED.

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anyone got jazz drum playing experience? care to exchange pointers?

dream a lil dream of me

2006-09-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

this morning! i woke up! and recieved a message! are dreams gonna be a reality? or just a result of TOO WILD imagination?

yup, recieved a message on my slick and not so slim N3250!

i realised i need to do my new phone some justice. so heres a post on it. hooo~

so my razer now has a new best friend. yessss everything is black i know! i love black hardware. im a sucker for that its true!

and and, wait thats not all! look! we got the same phones! both brand new and bought within a span of 48 hours!

as we all can see, my precious july isnt forgotten!

haha, so to whom does the other phone belong to exactly?

hoooooo~!

okay,

so what have i been up to lately?

well, i passed my 1st semester of year 2 at temasek poly with oh-not-so-good grades.

all C's and C+'s. oh well, better than failing. yet again this proves faith has no limit, cos i didnt study. and im not gonna put it to the test anymore. the next miracle would be to stretch my capabilities to push my GPA to a 2.5 . (kinda hard since im nowhere near there now)

and and... i have since started a project of my own....

hmmm...

alright, thats all so far.

To Joshles Server: happy WoWing!

To the Rest Of The World: goodnight!

and how did i spend my sunday?

2006-09-11T02:11:00.000+08:00

Harold, son of phillip celebrated his happy 21st.

i have no idea, but a family celebration.. hmm? interesting.

alright. went to this shall not name awful hotel along newton there.

hur hur. buffet sucked. food sucked. service sucked. 100% budget place.

anyway, still happy to see my little cousins grow up and find out how they are doing.
thankfully we sat at the back row, with absolutely nothing to look at except a fake waterfall.

and we sat there and on and on until finally, cut cake time. at this point, i was damn happy, overjoyed, and thankful BECAUSE, its not very comfortable to have a bunch of aunties swooning behind YOU, SO ESPECIALLY LOUD THAT U CAN HEAR WORD for WORD, talking to each other about your HAIRCUT, which looked ever so awful when freshly cut, and THINKING it looks cool! oh hell no, its not the first time anyway

see this lot of kids, my cousins. they make me feel old. oh HELLO.im only coming 18. but still.. geez =.=

and the birthday cake: itchy fingers included

and of course, the big boys in the family should eat more...... righttttt. more like a better way to dispose an oversized cake. 3kg, 4?

and thats about it...

i wonder how my 21st would be like. i'll drop a clue. booze.

oh oh and before i forget. spot the birthday boy!

wasnt that easy? HAHA!

okay! nights!

picutres taken using my NEW 3250! praise the lord for new phone!

i dont trust

2006-09-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

my own country when it comes to spotting talent.

im so so glad i didnt waste time watching every episode of SI.

what the point anyway?

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im down with a bad flu, dont know how i got it also. 3 days already....

anyways, the new worship band kicked off on wed! its been really great, whole new experience altogether.

its time for change again, old dont go, new wont come. familiar phrase eh?

im gonna practice really hard for this last mass with ymm, i WILL forget all the negative thoughts associated with it also.

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and and, i have no idea why, but this month i seem really really broke! lord please grant that i hold out until u send your angels to rescue me.

everything that....

2006-09-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

has breath praise the lord!

Praise,
to glorify and extol the virtues of god.

Worship,
to adore, revere, venerate, exalt the great god we love.
it is deeper than praise, and only those who has an intimate relationship with god can worship him.

P&W is not done based on our feelings, and as and when we feel like it. we are redeemed to rejoin to have a relationship with him, and that is why we worship him.

we do it in spirit and in truth!
it happens when the holy spirit within us energizes the human spirit and we are inspired to co-join with the whole spirit of the great father as one, spontaneously praising and worshipping him.

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first day of worship symposium,
i truly enjoyed the drum clinic. with Gabriel Alonso, a french born englishman as the trainer.
i learnt a variety of playing styles, combiend with techniques and for the first time, i saw ghost notes played live, as well as conga playing! what was even more awesome, was that when he started playing without sticks, the music produced was even more musical and creative than ever.

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as of now, we dont say "oh ya we have 4 musicians and a drummer". for GOODNESS SAKE, a drummer is a musician too.

im gonna work on control, and technique and introduce new playing styles to ymm. as long as i last there, i will give it my all.
=D

tomorrow is another day to look forward to.
Final Concert. cant wait, heh.

one more day to do. cmon, knock me off my feet!

bling bling - i Miss u

2006-09-03T01:37:00.000+08:00

yeah i really do.

i wont get to see her till next th8urs.

Thanks to a very busy start of the first week of the holidays.

going to worship undivided 2006 seminar. yep.

its been a tiring day so far, followed my mum to her favourite com fair as promised and then off to church for mass.

shaun's mini praise session was a blast. to those who went, awesome experience. to those who didnt, i think they missed out on quite some good fellowship and gen style worship.

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Its the start of the holidays. and i dont believe we cant make youth mass something different.

if its my temporary last playing for it, u will make it special.

today's scripture about paying lip service to god,
and actually doing things because we really love him,
and not to glorify ourselves.

and also, defilement of the body comes from within.

its kinda a wake up call to some of us, who play our instruments for the wrong reason, in church that is.
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Recently ive learned...

that i should always learn from stuff i do, be it the simplest, smallest thing.

that scripture isnt boring once u learn to appreciate its wisdom and truth.

that talking to the parents of the one's im responsible for isnt all that hard.

that it is unacceptable to run away from problems that occur even at unpredictable times.

that i should spend more time appreciating nature and deviate away from air con rooms.

that i should spend more time encouraging the ones closest to me that god isnt all that far away.
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I want to say to this leader of mine.

WE NEED your bloody assurance!

if respect is what u need,
then responsibility is also yours to keep.

when u do the thing u do u sweep me off of my feet.
darling do your thing and keep my heart longing for more.

how would it feel to be

2006-08-31T16:41:00.000+08:00

MANZAnaLICKED.
pleasure enjoyment and delight.

i'll be back tonight.

love, meli.

lucifer u

2006-08-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

bloody idiot.

cbbbbbb... rain until like shit.

today was a day of WAITING.

wait for rain to stop. wait for this wait for that.

an awful lot of working people got in my way today.

better still, bloody n7610 died today.

i take 1.5hrs to get home from suntec.

stupid idiot lucifer.

see, i burst today.

HAD A BAD DAY.

cut & paste convo

see, fucked fone.

until ur omni-presence made up for it.

teach me to that good things are worth waiting for.

with love.

if the stupid google ads irritate you, keep clicking them till they dissapear. then joshie will put a dollar in your hand.

whats wrong whats right

2006-08-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

its been a sick day.
highschool musical wasnt fun at all.

i cant remember what being a good guy was already.

see what happens when we rush things.

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ministry and servanthood, are they 2 different things?

leadership = respect? or responsibility?

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tomorrow will be a better day?
shining sun with a steady wind.

i seem very moodless today. check back soon.

salty balls.
toodles.

addicted

2006-08-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

really UN-confident about the dbsy examination tomorrow...

the lecture notes look so unfamiliar, doesnt even look comprehend-able.

so happened i wasnt really bothered to study for it also.

i did well for all the other segments making up the final % but YEAH, i dont know why i dont have the motivation to study for the last paper.

Jesus i commit my DBSY paper to you! Into your hands!
please dont bs- me for this one!
Fail Exam, Fail Module, Fail Diploma DOES NOT APPLY TO JOSHUA!

that aside, tomorrow marks the start of my holidays!

ABSOLUTELY CANNOT think of fun stuff to do.
oh dont we all know why?

anyway, i have so many things to buy. i realise my wardrobe stopped growing ever since chinese new year. last christmas seemed like only a month or so away.
i just suddenly miss christmass, esp with GENESIS.

and then xmas 06 is already on the way.
i can hear the joys of celebration in the not-so-distant-months ahead

oh oh, and my word of the day is: LAWL

what is this "lawl"?
its a way to express crazy, high, amusing mirth, pleasure, derision, or nervousness with an audible, vocal expulsion of air from the lungs that can range from a loud burst of sound to a series of quiet chuckles and is usually accompanied by characteristic facial and bodily movements.
Quite similar to Lol, LOL, lol , or LoL. But its not quite it.
if used correctly, may seem as cute to some.

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im so bloody addicted to you. wed is gonna be a darn great day. with nothing less than more good things happening.

i realised, when we say action and inaction, its really wonderful how obvious god puts it infront of our eyes.

recently i also dug up a thought from the back of my head. the basis of nonexistant dissapointment.

its lame, and it goes:

without expectation, there is no dissapointment.
would the dark gloomy clouds twist your face and make u go "oh shit"
if u were sleeping and not bothered to go outdoors for whatever reason.

DONT RAIN ON WEDNESDAY

laughing like a crazy goose

2006-08-27T02:28:00.000+08:00

GOOSE u say. GOOSE i shall be.

what on earth damn tiring i spend more than 12 hours running, jumping, singing, shouting, laughing and going crazy.

i dont behave as though my exams are just tmr. aha. whats worse is after the exams...

nothing to do, no job lobang yet.

no money $$$ , cannot do anything.

cannot go on shiok shiok dates also...

X_X

wed is something to look forward to. period.

exams tmr!

2006-08-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

yay exams tmr!
then the blessed joshua is gonna pass at least.

after last paper on monday. its time to get a job. earn some peanuts to buy some new stuff.

i had a real blood bubbling day today! ahaha!

yea man!

i got nothing else to write tonight. its been pretty much a great week.

oh yar. YOUTH MASS THIS SAT.

all who reads this better come or else.......

god will love u even more and understand why u cannot make it.

to end off, i shouldef posted this a while ago.

my beloved sister.

truly provides

2006-08-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

HE TRULY PROVIDES.

i wanna go for the worship symposium next week. - $60.

skipping subcomm camp

i need to go for the krunk beach party on the 1st. -$20

promised nic and fernnice

WHERE TO FIND MONEY TO PAY FOR THESE?

my atm card broke. i didnt go and change a new one yet.
i have less than $5 in my wallet right now.

at first, mum wasnt very supportive of the symposium. in the end i convinced her.

suddenly, got $80 from my dad. thats just nice to pay off for everything!

HALLELUJAH.

and honestly, im going insane, so stuck in a moment.

i cant study

2006-08-23T07:32:00.000+08:00

nothings going in!

i would gladly exchange 20 webdesign projects for the 2 dreadful exams coming up.

study study read read sigh sigh and nothings going in!

worse still, i think i need a haircut soon aha!

yeah... soon, its gonna be september.

and yup, that marks my official 9 months in ymm.

may u ignite brightly that same spirit u set upon me since, as i carry out your blessed mission .

obviously a brighter side to life.

im one lucky ass to begin with.

10 mins

2006-08-21T22:50:00.000+08:00

i couldnt hold it,
we flew away.

you are too great for reality.
you are my nightwish.

in 10 mins, we distanced from miles to degrees.

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i need someone to keep reminding me.

my INMM project presentation is on WED.
my SWINE exam is on FRI.
my DBSY exam is on MON.

nights sexay.

new toys

2006-08-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

vintage hats from the 70's
Paiste Sound Formula Sound Edge Reflector Hats
Estimate Cost: SGD$600+
(pardon me, im a mad hobbyist)

Top Hat

Bottom Hat

Badge Logo

Underside

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I had very bad encounters with national library board today.

they hate me.

mm.. josh went to study O_O.

didnt get much in, in the end went to slack =D

sooo tired. i think we were very efficient,
2 hours planning
1 hour designing poster
1 hour to print them out

ALL OF U BETTER COME FOR YOUTH MASS

Josh's Poster

JP's Pamphlet

we are evil

2006-08-20T01:33:00.000+08:00

we are evil,
your date got punk'd.
we are evil,
u are our joke.
we are evil,
we know your ways.

where is your responsibility?

actually, we are damn bad people.

we ought to ask for forgiveness.

i think we may just be thrown to hell.

after all, its St. Peter.

THANK GOD, its the real bread and wine.

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esplanade rooftop was no fun.
not without you.
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i wouldnt invest in ice-cream.
not when i am alone.
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i wont bother taking the slow walk home.

impossible?

2006-08-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

say its possible.

thank you, lord for making my heart skip one beat today.

its now closer to beating in tandem with yours.

hot as a desert that has gone dry,

i need ur love to get me by.

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we are sick people,

yours, mine, ours.

exceptionally good smeli foot.

im gonna get that pair of shoes i saw today. save save save!

i seriously think im a work-a-holic. i feel so wierd now that my assignments are done.

and i hate studying for exams. PERIOD.

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can someone enlighten me?

what does faith have to do with thinking far ahead?

i do know revelation and visions exist.

is there anything we cant pray about?

i feel retarded

2006-08-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

i finished doing all my projects.

YAY.

i am emotional.
i am nonsensical. (someone wasn't JUST KIDDING)
i am a very angry blogger tonight.

SUNTEC has evil people.
SUNTEC has bad connection.
SUNTEC is a bad place to shop.
SUNTEC is not a nice place to dwell alone.
i hate SUNTEC.

today, one of singapore's best drummers, J*MMY L**, was being very arrogant, and RUDE.

i am sorry u play for the shich and shamous.
i am sorry u are allocated a big studio.
i am sorry u have many students.
i am sorry u are well known in sg.
i am sorry u are endorsed by the industry GIANTS.

IM SORRY U ARE BALDING WAHAHA!

i am a beginner, im not even sitting on your sweet lil pearl forum. and i realised your cowbell is missing! HAHA. some lil fella must ef stolen it from u.

im sorry for 'warming up' in your studio. i had permission.
im sorry for u barging in without knocking when the lights are on and people are practicing in the studio.
im sorry for u being so senior in your industry and u dont know that doing that is RUDE?

but i forgive u.

*achoo!* i have watched your videos and they are stored in my hard disk.
*ACHoo!* i once looked up to u and even wanted to play like u do
*ACHOO!* i once felt that it was a privilledge to meet u
*SNIFF* there will no longer be a possibility that u will be my teacher

AMEN. may god change my impression of u.

i am sad. i dont get many good-nights.

wait!

2006-08-15T23:53:00.000+08:00

she wants love, everyday.
i try and i try and i try...

and im going crazyyyyy!!!
AH. i feel bloody sick. my throat is horrible i cant sing anymore.

EH. i didnt manage tog et nics present in time. im a failure at that.

ohwell. belated one for u nicky. hope your reading. im sorry!!!

1 project left. FLASH SHIT. come n ganbatte we can do it.

the problem now is, not too much stress. but i dunno what to do when the holidays come....

EVERYONE ELSE IS SO BUSY THEN.

i dont care busy also must come for practice come for youth mass come to church and study.

nopoint, nicetry

2006-08-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

Turn on your speakers, this is funny.

Featuring: Cymbal Polisher 'Carlton' my SISTER HEEEEE

ya bored on a sunday. yay i finally got to send my new christian genre samples to YOU.

i know YOU liked it.

nics celeb was alright.

love u nicky.

aight, i finished my CMSK report. time to sleep.

oh ya, i finally made good use of something that came in the national day goodie bagPACK.

tambourine! AHAHA, yes, from NDP 2005.

MUHAHA.

Saturday night, Siglap, Short and Sweet.

2006-08-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

m-dadoll

oh i think i wanna linger ov'ere with u
and if i dont mean it then i wont say it at all
if a pill fell from the sky,
oh i wont think twice anymore cos
nothing is tastier
than you. slurrrp

random thoughts....

ahahas...

lets talk about

havent u heard the older ones saying, look at the bigger picture, then u will understand.

that way u wont be angry/sad/hurt/jealous/envious.

BUT, that way we also find it hard to be satisfied/happy/have a sense of achievement/proud of something we did.

we do things to make others happy, and partake in activities to fulfil what others want of us.

im worried about a certain someone. like all of us who have friends or family who are younger and we feel the need to protect them from bad company, and in other words, dangerous people.

a person so quiet, softspoken, who is also honest, upright, can be turned into something else when they linger around bad company for too long. their minds become warped, and do not think of proprieties . they smoke, steal, become rude, have no respect for anyone anymore.

all for the sake of being like a certain SOMEONE who is popular and who others hold in regard.

how do we compare, these shits of society, to this man named

JESUS.

he spoke words of wisdom, people believed in him, blind could see, lame could walk, the dead rose from the ground, the once possesed were free again.

he who commands the storm and the sea, moved the mountains, parted the waves.

1/3 of the world believes in him, thats 2.1 billion people.

is he popular/respected/loved/wanted enough for u to leave the shits of society and follow him?

still remember this?

havent u heard the older ones saying, look at the bigger picture, then u will understand.

that way u wont be angry/sad/hurt/jealous/envious.

BUT, that way we also find it hard to be satisfied/happy/have a sense of achievement/proud of something we did.

what if this man told u that he loved u the same, even if u failed your exams, even if u had hurt your parents, even if u had commited mistakes so bad the whole world hated u for it.

its time to look to him and see how he can help u and not look in the depths of your failures and ask why didnt he appear.

as ur wondering what sense this makes, he loves you.
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OKAY, i was bored at 11.55pm, so i did some dumb things again. HEHE.

i needed a drumstick holder, a need to mount it somewhere so i can change my sticks faster when i play.

Solution: 1 hi-hat Box, 2 pieces of tape, scissors.

Tadah! home made stick holder

a better view of where its positioned

next, i cushioned my bass drum 3x more so the nasty mamasan downstairs wont set the gov dogs on me.

Used: 3x chinese new year pillows

with mummy's permission...

Triple monkey bass drum mufflers

And since i had more spare time, i decided to signature my Bass drum skin!

Joshua's Signature Bass Drum Resonant Skin

and and, since some people complained its hard to differentiate a china from any other crash, here is another look at my baby.

Sabian B8 18'Chinese

hello world, joshie in da house

2006-08-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

my desktop's power supply went poof at 4pm on 9 AUG. yes national day. i felt like i had lost the use of my arms... not to mention how much project working time wasted.

aiyah.

BUT, miraculously, i sacrificed 3 hours of sch to get my baby fixed and its now up and running! like black beauty the horsey!

innets

haha.. i did some stupid things today. but didnt regret... if we could only have 15 mins together, and need to get home fast, what do we do?

WALK HOME. yes indeed... haha!

im a drug drug drug drug drug.

now what exactly happened on national day?
1. com died
2. i was so depressed i fell asleep
3. and missed the NDP
4. and singapore idol

5. KIDS CARNIVAL

we report at 7am. blow ballon, set up booths, twirl ballon strings. set up AV equipment. arrange trophys. clothed the tables arrange the chairs. accomodate peoples whining.

IT
was a major success i felt. the kids were so excited and happy. and and! i tied camille's naughty brother to the railing using his balloon's string! WAHAHA so cute!

no picture though.

what i have instead, is a picture of me and desker. yes jon desker. not deskar road. not gay. not gay couple. but a good friend.

my new toy

2006-08-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

Behold my new TOY.

it sounds like a trash can LID.

yup yup.

only $260SGD.

i spent 3 hours in total taking VR photos of fullerton, victoria theatre and esplanade.

the 116 trio, teckie, me and lex went round and round the area shooting buildings. yup. the 360 degrees kind.

god loves me, the rainy clouds blew away. and he will bless tmr night with wonderful weather as well.

and so, the first time, i talked to lex about the god who loves me so much.

and tonight he told me he loved lex too.

art

2006-08-07T02:36:00.000+08:00

PRESENTING.......... (drum roll)

MY view of MY stagestar. (low quality/ fastload)

can see?
now hit CTRL on your keyboard!

cannot see the picture?
please click
HERE ' this is definitely worth your time.

taken at 10pm. stitched at 2am. launched at 3am.

if only

2006-08-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if the bus came 5 secs after u walked to the bus stop.
wouldn't it be nice if ur project mate gave u 5/5 for group peer evaluation.
wouldnt it be nice if the friend who misunderstood u smiled and said sorry this morning.

wouldn't it be nice if miracles happened everyday.

B lessed, I nteresting,& B lossoming, L earning ,E xperience.

okay. im all smiles.

ordinary 7610

my 7610

GOD love u all.

prayers are answered

2006-08-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes in a jiffy!

walking to god with a heavy heart

2006-08-03T00:14:00.000+08:00

we are a chosen race, we illuminate rays from above to others. help me to be who u want me to be.

recieved alot of shit today from some leaders, requesting this and that. u somehow turned the tide, making everything seem fine.

i stayd back today in school till abt 8.30 just to finish up my swen project. lets put it this way. i started only today.

and i finished it today. well, before 12am. ahaha.. the power of believing. i know i wont fail this either.

i felt rather dissapointed, because i cant give my 100% attention and mind space to the people i like/love/wannabewith/carefor, i know its not fair.

alright..... i know stress can either bring a person down, or elevate him or her to such a high motivated state where we get our brains pumping the right chemical and we can achieve things out of the norm.

alright. tmr's gonna be a better day, and so for the rest of the month! projects will come and go just like the thunderstorms. why should we fear the rocky ocean when our saviour sleeps in the same boat as us?

my fellow believers, fear not, for the pastures of gold and green await us! we are a chosen people! i believe the storm will be over soon!

new things NEW THINGS!

2006-07-31T23:16:00.000+08:00

surprise surprise!

im bored, lame wadeva LOL! i like what i did haha!

new skin again..

heh.

i hav,
1 week till i hand up my
-CMSK Report
-SWEN SRS

2 weeks till i hand up my
-STMD Project
-INMM Project

3 weeks till my

FINAL EXAM

1 month till

Holidays! Ahahas..

bye!

tsukareta

2006-07-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

im so friggin tired today, and i dont wanna make a big deal out of it.

during youth mass, the contact lense on my right eye dropped out. so i couldnt see...

i think u can guess the rest.

i have lost my bright and cheery side and am feeling so worn out.

please revive me.

change

2006-07-26T22:25:00.000+08:00

did i say i was gonna cut my hair? wait i did. i look like this now.

if u see me along orchard road please wave at me to say hi.

CHANGE = CONVERSION = Ongoing Transformation in our lives..

only when we welcome change can we allow the new gifts that we are to recieve and the refreshment to our lives.

heart renewal? HELL YEAH!

still lamenting.... U_U

2006-07-26T21:57:00.000+08:00

so sad. gone gone gone.. HAHA

but im trying to acquire some istanbul sultan hats.. if im blessed to have em, then it will cost less than $200.

or else.. i will wait.

i cant wait for saturday, its youth mass week! and woowee! before that im gonna have a great time!

GONE

2006-07-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

i sold my darling paiste 302's

my very first set of cymbals.

oh well, the friggin ssri lankan took the hats and crash for $150.. which means.. i am left with the ride.

which after some basic calculations, means that i paid only $40 for em. hoho! business man in the making...

gonna save up real hard get a set of istanbul mehmets... not like u guys know wad im talking about yea.. they are from turkey. paistes are gay german made. GNITE.

let the storm help me feel your suffering and bring me closer to u.

2006-07-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

im asking for too much.

recently ive not been myself.

and then i think sometimes people dont understand where im coming from.

i just want to achieve certain things.

HAHA. great stress reliever.. im about to work hard on my projects. and then when my heart beats in time with my saviour,

the devil WILL no longer be able to take all creativity and beautiful things away from me!

MUHAHAHA.. yes. and that includes u :)

when i look at my list of things to do, ur number 1 yeah.

a girl called style

2006-07-22T23:56:00.000+08:00

i know it aint no big deal

but then again i looked

and u smiled back.

roaming my thoughts

is the shot of us

and then the smile.

u pwn mon-a- lisa. W_W

so tiring, its the busiest part of the semester once again.

i have been a bad boy, i bsed kenji today, we left him outside the cab.

the moment the door slammed shut i wanted to exit and share his lonely fate.

we were at the confirmation guys's rite of sendin forth . i had those memories 2 yrs ago. its been so long and yet seems like only months away i myself was confirmed.

i was at sch today, even when it was a saturday, to try and finish up our database project.
we didnt accomplish much, but i know we will all succeed. and because i believe, i can.

btw, im gonna cut hair soon. its getting messy, or at least i think so.

sweet dreams earth.

oh dear

2006-07-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

i think i like my old skin better

guess whos back

2006-07-17T22:48:00.000+08:00

its me! im out of hibernation once again and im blogging tonight!

this is dam wierd, branny and friends self proclaimed it was poly's youth day and guess wad? after lunch at design sch, our 3some were walking to get drinks and then i saw this long hair guy quite a distance away and i thought like wa, so long hair looks like my old classmate. then i look closely.. hey i know him! what one earth is JAYPEE doing in tp?

then my fone rang and it was bran, luckily i turned around and i saw them, they were trying to ambush me from behind.. i was still shocked la, wads the whole church gang doing in my sch. turns out they were meeting simon to play LAN... zzz.. they chao school to come to tp and play...

since they asked so nicely, i decided to join them.. so after cmsk lesson, which thankfully was a mini exam, we could leave as soon as we were done, then i went to meet em hehe.

ok, the intsc clubs elections were just over, and NIC got elected the subcomm;s asst head. LET ME TELL U. He is the guy who is going to change the school. we are gonne have MORE THAN JUST a twinkle of class a pinch of Style after this year. i believe he can work wonders. and of cus, me being a VERY kdz friend, i signed up for subcomm too!

ok la, the interview was a breeze, do some dance and cheer i think i'll definitely get in. not to mention the person who interviewed me was nodding away at whatever i said. i dont know if he understood what i meant or not but im quite confident. oh well, results on wednesday. cant wait =D

hmm, there was comm skills test today, i didnt study hard for it.. but teacher gave us references for the test on writing in APA style. ITS LIKE OPEN BOOK EXAM !

also, what rick said today maid ultimate sense to me. the projects that we are currently doing should be done professionally, so that we can submit them as part of our portfolio when we find a job next time. like DUH, i will set a standard for all the work i do now.

oh ya, backtrack.. went for clarice's , rachel's, jon and john's confirmation on sunday. waa everybody looked so pretty and handsome. of cus, there was caroline, gabrina,melissas's and alot more people... CONGRATS ALL OF YOU! welcome to the family!

just before i left, i saw something lovely. shant say what. =D

CARPET

2006-07-02T12:47:00.000+08:00

i have no freaking time to get proper carpet! that BOX has served me well so far okay.. the nighbour downstairs haven complain ok! oh well, hes probably enjoying good music from above.

now u know wad to get for my birthday ok, those who complain.. my birthday is only3 months away! HMPH.

wierd 777 tag

2006-07-02T12:21:00.000+08:00

okay theres this wierd thingy in veracia's blog that i am supposed to follow and post here.
okay its something like this...

7 random things about myself:

i am a pro-drummer, wannabe
i rarely sleep before 2am(actually was 3)
i own the only drumset in the entire ubi estate
i live in UBI, hint* hint*look above
i am trying to grow a chest(o.O)

7 things that scare me:

balloons! get em away!
drumsticks breaking in a concert and i have no spare
fingerprints on my darling paistes
watching a movie alone with another guy
failing school
my mum when she asks me to turn off my comp at night
when all my friends abandon me

7 random songs at the moment:

SAY ITS POSSIBLE
stop crying your heart out
jenny
theme song from highschool musical -all in this together
brandons i love cindy
milkshake with our lovely 'lala, lala,la'
how great

7 things i like the most:

my daddy, in heaven
my fellow church pals
my computer
my drumkit
my guitar
when i turn 21
you

7 things i say most:

realliiii?
'imba'
praise god
'pls larr'
i dowanna be 100% chinese
OMG
'so ugly'

7 people to do this:

ITS OK GUYS I DOnT WANNA PUT YOU THROUGH THIS> however i would love it if all of u who sees this put it in your blog too.

by request from josh OKAY?

i am back!

2006-07-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

hohooho.. major update.. havent blogged for 30 days. i made a promise to update by the week end. here goes...

okay im gonna do my usual complaining about projects.

i have to complete a flash animation, complete with a short clip, games and a gallery. pardon my but WTH. its like the lecturers are expecting us to come up with less than average work to complete the requirement. well im not gonna be just mediocre, im gonna score an A.

the other projects are my favourites database work and multimedia. okay multimedia one quite intersting. have u all seen what a panorama effect looks like? like how they advertise travelling on the net? okay imagine a huge cathedral. u can look at the picture, turn it left and right up and down, immerse urself in it as though ur actually at the place itself. cool eh! yep, thats wad i'll be doing.

okay, backtrack abit. the novena we had to play for with only 1 week of preperation and practice was quite smooth. ministry is facing some other problems though. but it is a lesson that we are already learning from. but i know in the end everything will be put together successfully again. bcos we believe.

okay.. u guys heard of swee lee? there was the mid yr 50% sale on yesterday. and people were queing up a DAY before just to be first in the line, to grab wadeva they had saved up for. so imagine the shop is STILL open, but already people camp outside the door for the nexxt day.

not too long ago we did a carwash in church to raise funds. half went to support the mission trip to thailand. the other half were intended to get gear for the music ministry. so we decided to get some amplifiers. a few of my friends went to camp at about 5am. okay. thats like early already. my mum wanted to replace the guitar at home. so we came down at around 11am. 11am! guess how long is the que? i estimate about 200 people b4 our turn. then i spotted shane mark eugene and jem. heeeheee , i went to join them. they wait for 6 hours already, and they not even inside the shop yet.
but things were quite smooth from there on, i waited another half hr with them and then got in.
met a new friend, drummer also. played for 6 yrs. at first i thought i didnt like him, bcos he was rather arrogant and he was rather effed up by the fact that i like to play worship. but soon i talked to him more la, and i guess hes not that bad. poor guy didnt get the cymbal he wanted. got snapped up already.

okay.. in the end, mr joshua walked out of the building for the FIRST time, with a guitar bag over his shoulders.
its normal for others i think. but the sight of myself in the mirror already TICKLES me. LOLOL.

okay la, that rather sums up my last 30 days... the holidays werent wasted, only thing that bothers me is ideas for my flash project. hmm.. i will probably pick some inspiration up during mass service later on.

cheers!

finally

2006-06-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

i got something i've always wanted today. its a gift. =D

vintage red

im gonna train hard. hone my skills. i'll be great someday i promise.

okay, now im gonna talk about the past few days.. well.. saturdays gig turned out to be excellent. we ended up the only band playing and yes we had to lug our own drum kit there too.. thanks freda's mum for the car...

okay i got there early for a quick practice.. had to play another song kinda impromptu.. still, i think i got it right. i've trouble with being confident for the gig at first.. but we still amde it in the end... overall it was exciting and i wish for more of such opportunities.. im very sure we drilled our parish name ring in the heads of the guys who came that night

shall get pictures and videos to upload soon =D

i shall wake up tmr morning... and tune my kit!

2006-06-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

good stuff coming my way.

thank u, praise u, love u

term test ends tmr. i wonder how i fared. =P

june, nuuu

2006-05-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

June is only 3 days away. my term tests are on the first week of june... thats next week.

i cant dissapoint anyone anymore . im going to do well this time round.

okay this months youth mass didnt go as smooth as the last ones.

i hope this wakes some people up. management and relationships have changed if anyone noticed. and i hope the leaders get the wake up call.

on the other hand..

mum promised that i would get my drumset in june..

ahh after asking this person that person for opinions about this about that.

i think ive made up my mind already.
and the initial choice is the final choice.

prayer will tide me through it all.

__

2006-05-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

theres so many things i want to do.

some are in front of me, waiting for me to take the step and get on with it.

some i could only wish for.

thank you for one that i can relate my feelings to. and i know that u indeed care.

sometimes i sit in the dark of my room. the whole place lighted up only by the soft glow of this box i am staring into now.

and i think to myself. how many people have i made 'smile today?

theres also this feeling i wish to find back again...

my true happiness and joy.

where has it gone to?

Dan Brown has thrown the world into unsureness. the church itself has lauched many mini 'campaigns' organising talks and sessions to prepare believers to differentiate truth from malicious lies.

its funny how mere literature can turn the world into uproar.

today my mum came home and told me something she heard.

'u know ah at orchard road, the da vincii poster fell down.. den got the picture of jesus on it... den everybody dunc are just step step lor.. imagine if its a picture of a buddha or a islamic figure.. then surely their followers sure make noise and raise issues one..'

when the christian love and peace we freely give is taken advantage of, what do we do?

during service in saturday, i was once again reminded of the phrase,
'no greater love than to give your life for a friend'

during ending hymm.. this old lady came up to me and said...

young man...

'ya?'

donate blood?

'ok'

we can drink water to replenish blood.
this pack of blood u give can save anothers life.

drink water= save lives

get it?!

HARD'OOOO Day

2006-05-16T01:26:00.000+08:00

its one busy day for me...

righttt now its tuesday morning. okay rewind back to monday first.

i had comm skills presentation today. and we werent really prepared. oh well we were doing the topic of prostitution in sg and the region. i guess we were really adept at it. well some said i had too many "umms" and "yars" during the presentation.

anyway it was real funny. bcos i didn really wear casual. i wore jeans, my sneakers, a while shirt and the jacket i bought at shanghai LOL. compared to my classmates who came in blazers.. and yes lex got himself one too. he wouldnt stop saying $199 okay..!

so i met lynette from gc during lunch... she agreed i was too informal. she even said.. wuah! u think wad.. u F4 ah?! okay lah.. maybe really too informal.. look like going to singapore idol likedat.. wad the.. thank god got teckie who wore almost the same style of informality as me... wooo!

okay.. anyway went for my first PSYCHO-logy lecture since school started.. now is like week 4? LOL im proud i still got 70% for the test. its a miracle. really.

okay so reached home already 8pm.. sat down awhile den went running with kenji. im really mad. i left a whole presentation-to-do due tmr and went running late at night ha!

okay im happy we managed to complete 3 laps this time. if the marker on the road saying 1490 means 1490m per round. we ran 1.49x3 thats about 4.5km!

im a real beginner at this. so im happy to achive some shit already... haa

i need to buck up on the 2 killer subjects i got. they are the only 2 examinable ones this sem and OH. if i fail , which i cant... i will definitely be letting alot of people down =P

k,
nites!

privacy concerns

2006-05-11T12:16:00.000+08:00

lets not forget what happened to the poor nyp couple whose intimate scenes was broadcasted over the net.

what happens when u lose your phone?

this is tommy from mandai polytechnic...

lesson learnt. poor guy.

PS: video was locally shot and clip was uploaded from a samsung v3

enjoy

hard and gay

2006-05-09T12:34:00.000+08:00

credit to lex for introducing retarded material once again.

introducing HARD GAY

hot and LIVE

spend a few mins, enjoy the show.

im devastated!

2006-05-08T18:05:00.000+08:00

nUUUUUUU !

nicholas got a girlfren! nUU! does that mean im gonna be lonely in school from now on???

it cannot be!

lol. thats the way i think i would react if i hadn't had U, the person reading my blog to be my friend =D'

haha..since this guy nicholas has been kinda out of my topics for quite awhile, i still greatly value his friendship and therefore, i dedicate this entry to him =DD

mr N. got hitched with a design gurl he met at FOC i think. what makes it even more interesting is the fact that the gurl.. is a FRESHIE! muhaa! i jus love calling others freshie..

and then today we saw her , while ONLY I, was taking my lunch. i had the ex lex (=x) follow me to design school! wee how long since mrN. followed us to have a meal!?!?! $#^@^%@

lex had a spasm he kept whacking us with his paper swab and it was definitely irritating the shits out of me!

okay.. we saw that girl. MU ONLINE her name was. and okay ... lets call her
ms tanned design gurl HA! and then mr N. was shy! he didnt know to sit with us or her. of cos he was a very good friend indeed and so accompanied us instead. this doesnt mean he isnt a good boyfriend to her. it jus means he is pleasing those, who had supported him through his first yr in poly, followed him in his lesson ponning escapades, and covered his back against bloodthirsty GANGSTERS! or rather... he covered my back... =p

anyway cheers to U nicholas and your newfriendfound. may the blessings of my lord be upon u.

longlastingfriendships indeed!

however u are still a spiderman and a maggot^^

HA!

wtf

2006-05-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Npnt
Baby Burger
LOL

brans stayover...........=.=

2006-04-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

sat night we had stayover at brans place yet AGAIN. i was late, i reached only at ard 10pm lol.

so we chiong until around 3am, den suddenly everyone became so tired.. and complained, we wont go on without food! so okay.. we decided to call macs...

6-777-3777.... it felt we dialed over a hundred times, everytime there was no answer from the 'minah' on the line LOL.

P.S:"minah" = macs is not a happy *person*

so everyone gave up, in the end my turn to call, it was already 3.30... den there was the usual waiting in line music.. and then suddenly "hello can i take your order"! lol! immediately i shout everyone tow ake up and order what they want.. and then there was the hugnry james, the one complaining, calling like mad and he took the phone, spent 10 mins yapping away like a mad idiot,.. and nUUU , he wasnt placing his order, he was scolding the "minah" on the line lol!

and then that idiot kenji came with his retarded eyes and said"u make me wait 3 hours for u to pick up the phone, and now u tell me u dont have McPorky!!! WTF, we all went rolling on the ground because the effects of his crap seemed super amplified at 3am in the morning! WHUAHA!

and then... i was bored, i didnt want to watch the geek show on tv. so i went to play with the imba cat. i waved my hand infront of him and made her turn her head round and round and round and then "raaaa! sheerrrrr sheeeeeehhhhhh..." wa she scratch my hand.... her paw so small but the 3 wounds so far apart.. somemore got so much blood! oww?! shes on my imba cat banlist already...

right.. the post seems a lil hard to understand lol, oh nvm.

only a step away

2006-04-29T13:56:00.000+08:00

im happy! happy! mum went to repair her lappy today.. and... she passed by bras basah so she went to take a look in swee lee!

okay.. i wasnt there so i din get to see anything... but she came home and told me about the drum stuff there, the many kinds of drumsets.. that means shes not against to me getting one... whether i pay for it myself or not!

i will pray.. and i will be given.. =D

Healthy Lifestyle ahead!

2006-04-28T09:30:00.000+08:00

say goodbye to unhealthy junk, im trying to get in shape here.

first off, was supposed to be in school at 8am for lesson today.
i slept relatively early the night before in order to get up on time.
but NO! i woke up at 8am instead! boo! lex called and nic msged but i said i wont be going. haiya.. this means i wont get to see my beloved c116 as a whole even if its once a week .
double boo!

i dont like to blame, but my timetable sucks. why? there are 2 days on the list that says "Joshua, u have to wait 4 hours for the next lesson, even if it means the day starts at 8am"
what on earth!, poly student doesnt mean can waste time wad...

anyway, gotta meet my freshies for lunch at 12, im blessed aint, they actually bother to meet up with seniors ^^

so my eyes were wide open by 8.30, i decided to...

go running!

yes, i know. the skinny chicken still wants to run... oh well, its about the stamina.. and all the crap about healthy body= healthy mind and stuff..

my main aim is to gain mass la... hmm,now where do i start...

whether i eventually make it or not, keep guessing! i need u to be my motivational friend!

thanks kenji?

hoho

Radio blog is up!

2006-04-27T21:33:00.000+08:00

many thanks to hype.nonstandard.net

my well longed for hassle free blog is up!

dear friends complaining i didnt update.. this is for U =D

more to come!

hosting died

2006-04-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

my blog bg hosting died on me.. no idea why.. anyway its back alr bcos im so efficient.

finally we finished gc presentation. and now i can finally enjoy whats left of my holidays...

NOT. OL week zero is only a week away.. time to prepare to recieve them new students ha!

i hope im gonna be partnered with someone whos fun, caring and one that i can work with.

theres a gc class chalet coming soon and if it clashes.. i dunno what to do.. pray not luh..

ha! exposed

2006-04-04T01:20:00.000+08:00

here is a super rare shot that my friends spent so much time trying to take. i think got 7 cameras taking only 1 turned out good.

its just a picture of us jumping. LOL

looks like i exposed the secret money bag! and oops.. now everyone knows where i hide me money ==_

shanghai 06

2006-04-02T21:48:00.001+08:00

im finally back in sg after a week. its been like 8 years since i last travelled on a plane already.

i have too much to say to everyone, so i think i should blog about it instead =D

ok my first statement. The people in china are really racist! when we jus got off the plane, passing the customs to get outside the airport, the guards immediately singled out the malays and for our case a sri lankan guy. we singaporean chinese got really quick clearance and waited hella long time for them to get their stuff checked.

the first breath i took of china's atmosphere nearly killed me... freaking polluted! like standing in front of the SBS bus's exhaust and taking deep breath.. besides that, its really cold and dry, maybe ard 8 -10 degrees.. soon after that, my nose started to feel as though it was splitting apart. no blood, just like someone cutting it up ha! but i experienced sth real cool. when we exhaled, got smoke from our mouths lol! i must sound really sua ku now: xD

some newer housing estates

so anyway, we went to this suzhou industrial park, where lee kuan yew supposedly went to sign a deal with em to invest over there, i really nv heard about it before.
that place was realy like a tiny singapore, air was much cleaner, environment too! they have hotels, housing, shopping centers, supermarket, factories, farms, all in one place. not to mention the whole industrial park is actually 1/3 of singapores size. WTF .. one special thing about that place which makes other industrial parks jealous is that they can approve investors from overseas and act like the government. real cool right!

so we also went to silk factories, saw the poor wormies getting their homes cut up and themselves boiled to death. tissue factory was cool. really funny to see them rolling gigantic rolls of toilet paper around.. one roll i think can last 2-3 generations lol.

we went to a village on mostly water, called xitang. mostly cultural stuff, but its called a mini venice. there were alleys so freaking tiny, i think only i can squeeze through lor!

xitang village

then there was this freaking wierd train we sat, called the maglev, a chino-german project. the train moved as fast as aeroplane taking off.. i got a video of the scenery passing. pm me if u want it. we moved at like 400+km/hr.. its crazy la.. now i feel mrt is like so sloww..

not to mention the beggar kids running around everywhere. quite sad really. they are forced by their parents to beg from young, to be pickpockets and all.

also got to ride on the ferry around the gigantic west lake. believe me it is bigger than singapore river, kallang river or wadeva river in sg put together. saw guan yu's tomb, and damn funny, there was the statues of his persecutors being fored to kneel down and GUESS WAD, they were covered in SPITTLE. there was this sign in chinese saying, qing something tan, initially i thought it meant" please spit". later on my friend said, the words meant. "we are civilized people, please refrain from spitting". LOL imagine that.

please spit xD

we also got to see green tea plantation... that place kinda took half of the cohort students money away lol. freaking expensive green tea they sold. but really nice too.

green tea farm

we visited the childrens orphanage. and something really unbelievable about the place was that it is bigger than TP. orphanage leh! bigger than the school sia! the kids there hae opportunities to go to school, up to universities somemore. and they have activities, indoor basketball court all that, do we even smell a indoor basketball court in the near future? NEVER!

fortunate kids?

alright.. , about china's nightlife. theres the place called "bund area" where we got to see shanghai's skyline. okay wait, when u look at clarke quay in sg, u think its very beautiful. but u can only look in 1 direction and admire. in shanghai, i can turn 360 degrees and still be amazed lor! i also saw buildings from colonial period, really look westernized. theres the place called "xin tian di" its a pub and shopping ctr area. crowding with ANG MOs. they too have starbucks, coffee bean. but the drinks standard . FAIL. lol!

bund area

new york and english buildings replica

river skyline

more buildings

streetscene

shant explain the cultural shows, acrobatic shows.. amazing.

there we go

the 4th day we went to the university. the place is real big, but super unorganised. also, to be a english teacher in china, u dun have to speak good english, just a little translation here and there can already, and get a degree in english. easy life?

the english standard

me and my groupies

me and some guy

our uni guide got punk'd

some faculty there

Finally, the shopping part. the stupid sch teachers took away the last day of shopping, and inserted it into a 1 hour slot for us. WTF but anyway no point feeling pissed. the market is called xiangyang market which sells imitations, factory stuns*(stolen goods) and black market items. i bought a adidas jacket, levis cap, a real communist tee for how much? only 31 SGD ha!

too bad not enuff time to shop.. and im very depressed, i left my beautiful green shades on the shelf of the stall. my friend convinced me that we will come back to get it later and we forgotten all about it! argh!

the real fun over there wasnt about getting nice stuff cheap. its about the bargaining. i really think my hagling skills improve already. from 385rmb for the jacket, cut, cut CUT to 80 rmb. den how? pay less and walk away, get it at only 75RMB, which means 15SGD only!

okay on the last day, there was this super boring visit to the museum b4 flying back to sg. we had 2 hours to walk around the musuem.. but after half an hour, we decided to snuck out and go walkin round town while we still could lol! so about 8 of us ran across the street, wad did we see? RAFFLES PLACE. yes! in shanghai lol!

btw, original adidas jacket at adidas shop there. sell certain stuff around 70% of the cost in SG, some at 20% more. so gotta be super careful also.

okay then there was this boutique, and OMg they sell shoes, jackets, tees, dresses, bags and almost everything! one shop already can beat bugis street hands down! i got this nice stripey and a jacket for about 60SGD. boutique cannot bargain T_T

so i left shanghai feeling really gian that i didnt spend much. but wth, learning journey, in fact, maybe i will come back someday...
peach blossom

and 1 last thing i must write down here. for public awareness!!!

during one of the after lunch run downs to the bus to go somewhere else, we all made it to the bus already. only my sri lankan friend. he got stopped by a beggar ard the age of 5-6 yrs old.

the kid wanted his toy ducky he was holding and my friend refused to give it to him, nor pass him any cash. the little boy then hugged my friend and pretended to cry. but from the window, i saw he was actually feeling my friends pockets for an opening. he was later rescued by another friend who passed the kid a can of milk.

1. most beggars in china are part time beggar, part time thief.

2. the bus driver, who stood next to my sri lankan friend, was smoking while leaning against the bus, and could not do anything. whY? cos if he helped, the enxt time he drove by, he would get beaten up.

point is.. dont be kind like my friend who didnt want to hurt the kid. i wouldef just shove me aside gently and walk up the bus.

only one think i felt a paid too much for was a mao zedong badge. at 2 SGD. it felt like only 50cents .. but wth, im back. and im happy. =D

i got videos too. if anyone is interested can msg me online.

till then,

cheers

psd fun

2006-03-20T03:53:00.000+08:00

i used a maggot tutorial on dotties and i got this at 4am.

5 min popART indeed!

anyway, a lil update on myself. i will be leaving for sg in a lil less than 1 week from now.

i miss everyone. thanks for those who spent time organising outings and such during the holidays.

i pray less people get ex ex ex everyday.

every who has time pls go watch walk the line.

great show. contains musicaroma

anyway, today i walked around half of singapore to find my VANS shoes.. poor mum wanted to find discount in the end didnt buy at all ha!

anyway, i shall go over to far east tmr to get em.

im determined to put a drumset in my room! i dunno how and when but it WILL happen!

also, here are my results for Yr1 Sem2:

Interface Design:A

CommSkills :B+

Computer Systems: C+

Programming:C+

Database Systems:C

Japanese:C

CMaths:D

4+in the morning, guDnitez!

HA

2006-03-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

LEAVING for shanghai on the 27TH

i had a week of tutorials. and i tell u they were EXCELLENTLY EXCELLENT

they taught me the reason why others dress differently from u. why they behave in a way u find disgusting. why they do things that u never even thought about.

why do the aborigini people walk around scantilly clad and yet people respect them, and people in our urban society like to gossip about people who do so. =D

YES. wisdom + knowledge are the 2 things man can truly desire and be satisfied with.

besides shuffling between camp and lectures, i enjoyed myself. oh yeah, my group members complain to me why i always spend more time with others instead of them.

im sososo sorry about it. i forgot my place as a participant and did some selfish, unconsiderate actions.
but i made up for it! my last day was fruitful! i tried to know everyone better. and i can rmb all their names!

i got my first razor mouse from comp fair. and my lappy now has 1.2gig of ram HEE.

im stucked with report writing for the pre shanghai trip.

BUSY BUSY BUSY!

PP REMINDS ME.

the plane takes off against the wind and not with it.

nothing is too difficult.

and VERACIA, its impossible to FAIL.

INDEED.

trials

2006-02-27T02:06:00.000+08:00

monster hacked my friends

not long after my messenger

came and sent me rain.

we both knew we did our best

but feeders left again.

day in boredom

is like chocolate ,

chocolate at $1/gram.

my brains tells me copy

but my heart wants to try

ok try i will.

im now trying umm

ref.505 from england

holidays are boring.... somehow i feel scared to recieve my results.
i reluctantly went and registered for sms service lol...

tmr c116 is going out for a show. and dinner. AND i hope we dont do bo liao things after that.
AND i hope theres no quarrelling over where to go or eat.

yar also i know. SUCCESS is something like this.

gudnyte-

success

2006-02-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

YES, SUCCESS it is. lift up everything and anything to him and in return, SUCCESS!

youth mass went smoothly.. i loved the way jon and jon and jon did the "2nd voices" thingy. wish my voice as good LOL.

lets see... how my holidays gonna be..

sometime next next week... intsc OL camp, can c sch frens again ;D

and sometime in march.. im going shanghai! but wait.. not leisure trip.. but i get free credit units!

wth, its like paying to graduate. oh well.. it will be the time i finally leave SG in years.. so lets pray everything goes smooth.. no cancellation of the trip ;D

no terrorists.. no bird flu.. no nothing!

oh yar.. i had a smooth night.....;D

HEEHEE!

what do i want

2006-02-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

lets see what i want for myself now...

i dont think its a girlfriend la. .. hha

actually.. it would be understanding between people.

i want to be equipped with the right talent and skills to serve my lord.

to live life his way.

exams are in 2 days time.
its hummys bdae,
so i gotta celeb with him no matter wad cos hes my bro.

prob going to ps for lunch or dinner and movies =D

cannot go back so late again... last time i did mum got another excuse to yell at me.

ha!i skipped band practice today. and official mass is only next week. that leaves me only 2 more practices before the actual moment. WHY? cos of genesis meeting. well, after certain clalrifying of misunderstandings, fianlly got down to wad we were and wad we gonna do. still dissapointed to see not everyone there though. guess thats unavoidable.

went to school to submit my cheque for the shanghai trip deposit. thank god its my mum sponsoring me la. but then again. its not leisure trip wad. ha!
after that went to find cat and teckie to study.
stayed in sch from 1-6 today. studied 6-7 tutorials of maths. then dotaed using boons lappy! shiok la.. pwnage.. when will noobs ever learn ;D

actually, now that i think of it, i want to be able to help others when they are in pain, misery and helplessness. sometimes i cant even think of the simplest of things to say to give them the tiniest consolation. that sucks doesnt it.

theres a planned gathering next fri, but WHY must be at night =( .... im always busy at night.

TAKE NOTE: TRY NOT TO ASK ME OUT AT NIGHT LA COS I'LL PROBABLY BUSY. ==_

study break, how often do i get to see my schmates. really miss em. and next sem might change class already cos of the subjects i chose. sigh. might as well face it if ya cant change it.

btw our new inspiration for gen is
Revolving around Christ,Involving Teens and Evolving Dreams.

catchy and inspiring it is. jus pray we can live up to that. since now we are called versatile events company, hope that simplifies the 'demand' others expect of us.

Exam Rsults Confidence Chart
-------------------------------------
OOPG - C
cMaths1 -A
FNDB - C
CMSY - B
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note: oopg and fndb are memorising subjects that i dislike.

its been a long week.

2006-02-13T21:27:00.000+08:00

what to say lord its u who gave me life and i cant explain just how much u mean to me now.

u would tell me what to do, what to say, how to behave, take ACTION!

days ago, teacher suspected me of plagiarising my friends assignment for OOPG, i admit i hate java, got lowest in class for term test. but dun say i CHEAT!

cos im righteous! and i didnt! so my dear friends told me,"dont be afraid since u didnt cheat" and so that was that. much explaining to do today. in the end, i emerged out of the lions dens victorious.
- Daniel 7 16:22

thanks kenji for coming over in the middle of the night . i felt much better after talking to u. though u had to stand outside my house for slightly over 2 hrs =/

just came back from airport , went to study with jason..

and yes, theres this certain eye candy that i fancy.=D

link

2006-02-09T01:39:00.000+08:00

which reminds me, my ides project can be found at "http://teenzplanet.sytes.net/"

i need improvement. criticise me.

over

2006-02-05T04:17:00.000+08:00

finally! i have completed all my projects!

exams are in 2 weeks time. but i already feel a huge load off my shoulders!

im happy for myself proud of my self discipline. i didnt put my projects aside and go happy hour though i was tempted many times by my others.

being busy is not an excuse! its how much u actually want to do something for another person.
some people i know work so many days a week, still go to school, go shopping, and make the GRADE! people who are busy with 16 hours in school, and come for meetings after that. how great are they! makes me feel foolish jus sitting by and not being at least half like them! my source of inspiration indeed.

and yet there are SOME. who complain, who insult, comment without thinking twice... hurting as they go along, and not even lifting a finger when they see others with a work load not meant for them to carry alone.
dissapointing, but all things happen for a reason, and that is, for me to learn from them.

somehow things seem to be going my way. im v thankful for that. im going to STUDY for this final exam. i am going to SEM 2. and i dont mean passing grades. i mean 100% effort.

ive discovered how much people can change, and also learnt that i dont have to follow them, i dont have to change them anymore. yes, LOVE is still there. but i cant change the way they love me back. ==,

right now, all i hope is that i dont lose those important to me. perhaps i could take it, like i should.

or maybe....

we'll leave that till next time.

must change tagboard soon. laggeeeeyyyy

back

2006-01-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

been mia for such a long time. ive already forgotten how to blog... u can say this blog didnt exist anymore haha!

anyway, been kinda busy with project submissions and all.. and i got grades of extreme ends.

well, ranging from best to worse =.=, here goes...

CMSY - A
iDes -B+
FNDB -C or B i forgot
OOPG -F
Cmaths -F

sucked right? i better put in more effort to revise. new year break means study week. as the GAY tp like to cheapo our holidays and festive moods...

past 2 days and tomorrow is TP open house. well, though im not an *iGuide*, i still get a chance to do my part for the school.

i am a INT SCHOOL GUIDE, and am PROUD to be one. i am also unknowingly a MASS DANCER. -thanks nic

past 2 days been so busy, shouting and at kids from all over the island, screaming at nasty iGuides trying to take advantage of me. and dancing to the same old song by deadeyeDICK. yes. indeed a DICK song. when u dance u have to start shaking like a DICK.HAHAHHA

for my fndb project, i felt i kinda slacked away the whole time, bcos my assignment individual work was the easiest part. and i completed them in a breeze. whereas my team struggled with their own tables and blah FACTORY WORK i hate it when i dont get to use my brains... enough of that, here comes...

OOPG
1 word. "omgwtfimbabbqspiderman" my worse subject. and the project is like a c4 with only "sat,sun,mon,tue" = 4 secsleft b4 exploding. i enver had a good foundation of java. and never liked it. so i pray my multimedia option will go all smoothly, (which indeed it will). BUT a person of my intelligence. will finish it, even if its 4 days left!

if there are any people out there, who like to use cheapo tactics to bring your neighbours performance down.
i wont be seeing u in heaven okaY? =p

my jap roleplay project, script. typed out by me, edited by me,tabled by me. submitted by me. but im thankful even for such team members. bcos it just means that i am capable of greater things. and im not meant to be lazy like i am right now =p

about drums, well i guess im doing rather ok. other then my timing which mus be improved soon, i learnt 2 songs in 2 weeks so far. and i think i should be satisfied, and continue to improve myself. whether YAMAHA's fate of being a doomed school and fall into my banlist, and when u go into my banlist, means u go into a 100 others banlist subconciously as well.

by my tongue i will spread doom across the land. with the same tongue many shall be spared and saved.

jusaswellkissmyassafterreadingthis , u deserve it!

blessed

2006-01-06T02:33:00.000+08:00

hey everyone, im having a blessed 06!

it feels so great and fulfilling when u do something just to put a smile on that someones face.
the trip to the zoo with some less fortunate kids made me realise how much and how important my family meant to me. and also how grateful i am for them for completing my life. so cute they are, so teeny weeny also! i even took fotos and passed to them afterwards =)

from xmas'05 , seems some are very happy with what they recieved from me! haha yes kexin i know u will be smiling if u read this. cos i also v touched by wad u say la. well yeah of cos i put some thought into getting stuff for u guys! im so glad and i feel so appreciated! yeah im having no regrets, only perhaps bcos i felt abit broke after that, but doesnt matter anymore. god will provide =)

my biological clock is kinda scrrewed up too.. been missing some morning classes, important ones too. i also realised i could pay more attention in class if i tried. harder to lol.

yawn tonights prayer meet watched such a boring clip. according to some, "we absorbed what was relevant to use" and i went zZzz.... haha... but still, everytime i go there i can feel his presence la. even if i have negative thoughts, all will be dispelled and i will be at peace. shiok right! whha

yeah tmr got jap class already. though im not too happy with my groupmates, i know that everything will be jsut fine. i leave it to him, he shall work wonders upon my life, in his time.

faith for the present, hope for the future.

here are some phrases i stunnd from droo

The depth of ur character determined e depth of ur relationships.

The state of your heart determines the state of your life.

The size of your future is dEpendent on the size of your imagination.

so true hah! yeah. thx for having frens like him who i can turn to for inspiration.

xmas entry

2005-12-26T00:31:00.001+08:00

finally, im gonna update after 11 days lolz...

kae, this christmas was kinda busy one for me, had term tests the same week as christmas, so that explains my little time for studying, and little time i had to shop for my dear friends, so u guys be thankful for what u got kae, i din even get anything for my family =
ive been really blessed, cos i ended my exams with a little confidence here and there..and managed to finish my xmas shopping.. well.. kinda... haha...

AND I got my PSP hurray!! Praise GOD!

k fast forward to 23rd dec.

we had a youth arise ministry party, and there was many people from yiss over there too! even had chance to meet new people! i did something horrid btw, i sort of shared my horrible experience regarding something someone did to me, and i sort of made the person sound really really bad. and then everyone has a bad impression of that person already... anyway, will try to make it up to that person soon. =
so we had a great dinner, i learnt to play some funny african drum jeremy bought with the guitarists.. lol, i think its easy la, since it can only make 2 sounds..=D the night ended with some games and in e end cabbed home with heng ,kenji and emman,...

24th dec

hurray, dressed up kinda early, well i woke up at 1, had to go for veracia's drama thing at expo at 4.30.. so zoom and rushed to meet my this guy who sell me stuff for my PSP.. ... and i was suppose to meet yuanlong and hannah at 3.30?... kae the guy said meet 3pm at bedok taxi stand.. so i was there at 2.45 waiting... he was alte, like 5 mins or so but it seemed v long la.. plus rain suddenly so heavy... den he came in his pickup, i went inside his truck and we trade... so i got no small change and went to 7-11 to get small notes for him.. so nice la he send me all the way to EXPO somemore.... see im blessed once again =D

so went for the drama, ok was great though u acted a small part.. sharon au lookalike only HOTTER.. =D

went for dinner with seth and marlene and of cos the cute couple =XXX

after that rushed home b4 gg to church for my own church's celebrations...
i reached olps ard 9.55... suppose to meet at 10.15.. so i went into adoration rm o pray.. my first time lol..
saw kenji inside.. and this guy, so scared ppl kop his presents.. also bring inside lor.. wad the,..
so mass was over, and we headed to jons place to chillout, eeryone didnt go to amplify's party in the end lol!
reached home at around 4..

25th dec

hurray christ is born!

woke up fairy late, around 12... mum alr came back from morning service LOL!
so dad made lunch b4 i set out to the nunis's house for their party... woah... finally i brought my presents for everyone la... last night so paiseh everyone giving but i nv bring...

went out for family dinner after that.. k la, not as exciting as christmas eve, but i was too tired to do anything.,.. so in the end i didnt go to petrinas house for her party as i said i would.. felt abit bad la but wth, i think they would understandd...

26 dec 1.00am
hahaaa... later would be meeting them again to watch narnia,.,, and i mus say..

IVE BEEN VERY MUCH DEPRIVED OF MOVIES THIS DECEMBER, I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED MY HARRY POTTER YET!!!!

argh =\

xmas entry

2005-12-26T00:31:00.000+08:00

testi

2005-12-15T01:22:00.000+08:00

hi all, i will be dropping my YISS testimonial here too, msn seems unaccesible for non-members.. here goes..

those with a weak heart and little understanding, pls ignore this [part] and skip to the bottom of the post. thanks =).

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What to say, a very heart opening event for me. I learnt alot, made new friends ,and grew closer to my existing friends.

The week of the camp started off terribly, i realised my timetables were screwed, all my weeks of planning were ruined, everything seemed to clash... i was extreemely busy and stressed BUT extremely blessed as well... After countless emails and messages to many people, asking for excuses and leave of abscence, i finally made it to the YISS camp on the 2nd night.

Many told me i came at a very good time, the healing was going to be on that night. not long after i had arrived, i could already feel gods miracles and his power working in my life.

All my life, i had been to only 2 confessions. once in pri3 by father "arro"(i think spelt like dat).and now AGAIN by him! how great is that? so he was very nice , told me to put my prayer sheet away, and slowly talked to me about gods forgiveness.

so back to the healing where my facils prayed over me,. it took awhile, but i soon felt the holy spirit enter my body, and i fell back after the first time where i resisted falling. this is so called the 'resting in the spirit'.
the next day was even better. the outpouring of the spirit. they prayed over me once again, i felt the spirit take my heart out, literally in front of me, and bathed it, soaked it in the holy spirit, in gods hands. where i felt totally anew, refreshed and pure again.

i didnt get slain, but just stood there.. i didnt get my gift of tongues that night. i felt rejected , i was jealous of others. i broke down and started to cry.. when kenji put his arm around me, i cried even harder, he started to cry too. i found out later from him that he could actually feel my sadness and started to share it.

then teresa came, thanks girl.. so much... i jus fell into her arms and wept uncontrollaby... where i knew she understood my feeling at that moment... i cried my heart out, i cried till the barriers and steel walls surrounding my heart broke apart. i could feel again. i was given a new heart.

i rejoiced once again during the praise and worship, though i was still crying, i was happy this time, happy to be rejoicing in his name!
the next morning, (last day of camp), they called upon once again those who wanted to recieve the gift but didnt last night, i was suprised so many actually stood up, and felt foolish about the night before.

so they prayed over me once again.. and with the facil elading me in the language iw as about to recieve, i tried to call out a language i did not know before, (note that when i did so, i was still concious of the foreign language i tried to speak, it was of my own will). after that trying part of my own, my tongue took over, and i blabbered stuff which sounded like nonsense, and i was told to sit down and continue praising god.

i saw maria next to me also praising the lord with new found glory and i joined her, we hugged and den started to laugh.. we both knew that we had recieved the gift of tongues, and so knew wad each other was going through... thank god for the people around me, praise hime ven more for them knowing how i felt at different time of my encounter with him.

Amen
Joshie - "This is how i overcome"Whatever u ask of the lord, believe u have recieved, and u shall be given.Seek ye first the kingdom of the lord and all these things shall be ADDED unto you.

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tmr have a cmsk presentation, our props seemed sucky compared to other groups. grace is sick, so we may have one person less for the role play.. so i take on 2 roles? i can do it cos im not alone =D.

who cares, our POSTER ROCKS, thanks to? me and T.H. LOL....

die devil, nite all.
7.15am tmr...

joshIe =)

miracles

2005-12-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

gods miracles never end.

i went home and shared my story, my parents embraced me!

jeremy called to tell me i was in the band! and the next practice was on mondae!

WOW! i initially thought i would train for a year or two before making the decision to join the music ministry.. and now its found its way to me!

how great is god!

projects due and all HANDED IN. PRAISE GOD!

i can finally relax and do some stuff for myself, for my god!

wooo... counting down the days to xmas =)

yiss

2005-12-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

praise U, u renew me, u quench my thirst for u, u bestow great gifts on me.

back from my spiritual retreat, and am glad to say that i have learnt alot, on my way to a great relationship with my father.

kinda busy rusing some last min work!

tc miss all ya peeps!

wwjd

2005-12-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

ITS NEVER EASY TO DO SOMETHING FOR U.

i got my timetable screwed up. stuff i plan months ago is being torn to shreds.

i pray for time. i pray that everything be ok. i leave it in your hands.

curse U DEVIL , curse all the things u wan to do to me

im in no position to force anyone who reads this to read more. so leave if u want.

my shaghai briefing is screwed. i MAY be pushed to the unconfirmed list.
i wanna go to shaghai.... i really wanna... i wanna get my free 3(cu)

im gonna miss drum class this week AGAIN.
i seriously cant, u know it.. im already very far behind by missing 3 consecutive lessons..

i will miss the first 2 which i feel is important days of the YISS camp.

ERIC CALLED LAST MIN TO TELL ME TO GO TO SCH AT 8AM TOMMOROW. WHAT ONE EARTH IS THAT? MY ONE AND ONLY DAY TO WAKE UP LATE AND U TAKE IT AWAY? WHAT MORE, U TELL ME THE NIGHT BEFORE? LIKE I EVEN KNEW I WAS IN THE COMMITEE. HECK. I WILL DO OK.. BUT NOT TO GIVE U FACE... I DO IT BECOS GOD TELLS ME TO BE HELPFUL.

i need strength, i need strength to overcome these obstacles. all i want is to do something for u. never been so busy before... give me time.. show me how to gt voer this period in time.